"How many youth were saved?" It's the question burning on a lot of people's hearts after a Christian youth camp.
And let's be honest. We have a primary goal at Christian youth camps for youth to commit to Jesus.
Our heart behind this goal is good. We desire for young people to experience Jesus as we have. We want them to find the life-giving hope of the Gospel. We love young people, after all. Otherwise, we wouldn't be involved in this whole youth ministry regime (at least not for very long). For those out there like me, who have been in the trenches of youth ministry for over a decade, we are in it because we love Jesus and we love teenagers. We want what is best for them. And we know that ultimately, a transforming encounter and relationship with Jesus is for their best.
However, those of us who have been around for a long time have also seen the dangers of rushing youth to Jesus through emotive atmospheres and sleep-deprived decision-making. We see that these rushed, shallow commitments might provide a high for everyone involved at camp, but they don't last. And the fallout can sometimes be devastating.
Jesus talks about this kind of rushed, shallow decision to follow Him in Luke 14.
27 And if you do not carry your own cross and follow me, you cannot be my disciple. 28 “But don’t begin until you count the cost. For who would begin construction of a building without first calculating the cost to see if there is enough money to finish it? 29 Otherwise, you might complete only the foundation before running out of money, and then everyone would laugh at you. 30 They would say, ‘There’s the person who started that building and couldn’t afford to finish it!’ 31 “Or what king would go to war against another king without first sitting down with his counselors to discuss whether his army of 10,000 could defeat the 20,000 soldiers marching against him? 32 And if he can’t, he will send a delegation to discuss terms of peace while the enemy is still far away. 33 So you cannot become my disciple without giving up everything you own.
In other words, the decision to follow Jesus should be, to some extent, a calculated one. The costs (though truly minimal in comparison to the cost Christ has paid for us and all that is to be gained by us in following Jesus) need to be taken into consideration. This is an informed decision, not a rushed one. Conversion is a process rather than a moment. For some youth, a camp might be the beginning of conversion rather than the culmination of it.
This doesn't mean youth don't make life-long decisions to follow Jesus at camp. Not even! Many young people come to a Christian youth camp on a journey, and that journey leads them to the perfect catalyst for commitment at camp. Their conversion becomes complete. And it's awesome. Life and eternity are changed. Salvation experiences will always be a primary goal of any evangelistic youth camp I am involved in as a leader. Unashamedly.
But what about the ones who aren't yet at that point in their journeys? Is our goal for them, in that weekend, still "conversion" in the traditional sense? Or could we set a different type of goal and celebrate when God brings it to fruition?
One of the lessons I have learned through being involved with IGNITE Camp in New Zealand is how to think about setting and celebrating these different kinds of goals. Many youth in New Zealand come to camp with very little journeying behind them in relationship to Christianity. They come with heaps of questions about Jesus, the Church, and more. The work God desires to do in them during camp is often much less than a commitment to become a follower of Jesus, and yet He still desires to do a HUGE work in them in relation to their process of conversion.
It thrills my heart when I read on our evaluation forms from camp that a camper has decided to "give God a go," to"look into Christianity more by connecting to a local church," or "to begin looking into becoming a follower of Jesus." These are works of the Holy Spirit to be celebrated!!!!
So how do we approach camps in such a way that we encourage this calculated decision-making? How do we provide opportunities for those who are ready to commit to Christ without pressuring those who are at a different place in their journey?
To be honest, these are questions I (and many other people) are still asking--and ones I believe we need to ask constantly as we plan and pray for camps. We will often disagree on the nitty-gritty details of how this works out practically. But here are a few insights I've begun to accumulate personally.
1. Cast the broader vision to the whole leadership team and speakers.
This is key. Everyone involved needs to know that the camp is after the whole of God's desired work in individual young people's lives--nothing MORE, nothing LESS. Speakers need to be in on the vision so that they help reinforce that no one should feel pressured to make a decision they are not yet fully ready to make, as well as providing opportunities for response that might be shy of salvation. Worship leaders need to be in the loop so they can be careful not to pressure people into mob-response in worship rather than responding in ways appropriate to their current journey. Maybe this means a disclaimer of "Don't feel you need to sing these words if you don't mean them yet. It's ok to listen or to pray." Cabin leaders need to know to be patient with those in their cabin who may be at varying levels of the journey. Youth leaders need to know whether or not it is safe for them to bring along "un-churched" young people to camp. Everyone needs to be on the same page. Again, the details of how this plays out in different areas of a camp might vary from situation to situation.
2. Be sure local leaders take responsibility for knowing the individual journeys of their young people.
This is huge. Local leaders need to know they have the freedom to act on their own awareness of where each of their young people are on the journey. This could mean reassuring a student that he does not have to take Communion when it is offered or helping a youth process through what they are witnessing as Christian young people are expressing their worship to God.
3. Use language which is inclusive of varying levels of commitment.
Again, this is something a speaker who knows the vision can help with heaps, but we should be speaking to the fact that God is calling people to take various types of steps toward Himself at camp. Examples should be given that are within reach of people at different stages, such as, "Maybe you need to make the decision tonight that you will connect more with a local church youth group and start seeking to understand more who Jesus is and what He has to do with your life."
4. Give freedom to "opt out" of responding.
In my most recent experiences as a camp speaker, I think I've spent more energy trying to talk people out of responding to an altar call than to get them to respond. I want to make sure that youth are not responding because "Amber asked me to" or because "everyone else was doing it." Rather, I explain in specific detail what a particular response means and plead with people to do it only if they are in alignment with those specific details. General calls for response will get general response--and this will often confuse young people afterward. "What did I just do? Did anything happen to me when I went forward?"
5. Find ways to identify and celebrate varying levels of commitment.
If you use commitment cards or follow-up evaluations for a camp, include the possibility to celebrate varying levels of commitment. At IGNITE, we currently ask the following very open ended questions. "Did you make any personal decisions/commitments at IGNITE? If so, what were they?" We get responses to this question which are all across the spectrum, and I feel it is a much clearer reflection of the breadth of God's work at camp than asking, "Raise your hand if you gave your life to Jesus tonight" in a rally and counting the hands. If commitments are gauged publicly in this kind of manner, again, provide different, specific categories. The young man who committed to explore Christianity after camp should be given the opportunity to place a stake in the ground just like the young lady who sought to be filled with the Holy Spirit. Both are journeying toward Jesus--both are seeing God draw them closer to Himself--and both will need to point back to that point of commitment.
So, I'm still happy to give a foggy answer to the question of how many people claimed to have met Jesus for the first time at a camp. I'm thrilled to share with people that God is drawing youth to Himself. And I love that camp provides such an awesome opportunity for young people to have a salvific encounter with the God of the universe. But I also love to share these non-conventional stories of how God journeys with people through significant experiences at camp. And I want to continue to foster this powerful work of God in the lives of the young people He loves.
Tuesday, January 27, 2015
Tuesday, May 20, 2014
The Faces of 28 Months
The room was not as emotionally charged as might be typical of a closing youth camp service. Rather, a climate of serious reflection settled in during those precious moments of honest accountability and powerful, public decision-making. I sat in the back of the closing rally of IGNITE Youth Camp 2014 and watched the slow but steady trickle of campers making their way to the front where a line of youth leaders stood facing them. Each young person who responded took the hand of their local youth leader, looked them in the eyes, and said, “God has made everything right between me and Him.” This was followed by embraces, whispered conversations, and prayer.
From my vantage point at the back of the room, I could not see the faces of the campers as they responded. Instead, I could see the faces of the phenomenal youth leadership team of WMCNZ. I saw the faces of my co-labourers, most of them with constant tears streaming down their faces. Some of the most valued people in my life stood at the front of that room, leaders I whole-heartedly believe in and long to resource, champion, and celebrate. I have the privilege of mentoring several of them; many of them have become my closest friends. They ranged vastly in age and ethnicity, but not in heart. No, they shared one heart as they embraced their young people, as they heard testimonies of transformation and breathed prayers over the precious lives God has entrusted to their leadership and care.
In that moment, tearfully watching these incredible leaders, the Holy Spirit reassured me yet again of just how blessed I am to spend this season of life and ministry in Aotearoa New Zealand.
It was very personally significant for me that our IGNITE Leadership Debrief took place a couple weeks later on the exact date of my two year anniversary in New Zealand. And as I write this article, I am anticipating having much of the team together again at our EMERGE Leadership Retreat, only two days before I board a plane for my first trip back to the USA. Returning to North America to raise financial support for my second and final term as the National Youth Consultant of WMCNZ has caused me to reflect a lot on the past 28 months. I could write endless pages about my journey so far: learning lessons about culture (and making plenty of mistakes along the way,) visiting our churches across the country, preaching to young people, helping plan youth rallies and camps, offering training to youth workers... But ultimately, my reflection boils down to people. Faces. Of course, I see the faces of young people who have stolen my heart; I have been passionate about teenagers since I was one myself, and this has certainly not changed. However, through this time in the South Pacific, God has highlighted a new group of faces to me. The faces of youth pastors, youth leaders, and youth workers who have poured themselves out as drink offerings in the name of Jesus for the young people whom He loves. The faces of young and developing leaders who will shake the South Pacific and beyond with the Good News of God’s Kingdom. The past 28 months are summed up in your faces. To this incredible team of leaders and some of my closest friends, I want to say “Thank you.” Thank you for allowing me to journey with you and be part of your team. Thank you for the privilege of ministering to you and and alongside you. Thank you for serving Jesus selflessly in your local contexts and youth communities. You’re my heroes. And I look forward to our next season together.
From my vantage point at the back of the room, I could not see the faces of the campers as they responded. Instead, I could see the faces of the phenomenal youth leadership team of WMCNZ. I saw the faces of my co-labourers, most of them with constant tears streaming down their faces. Some of the most valued people in my life stood at the front of that room, leaders I whole-heartedly believe in and long to resource, champion, and celebrate. I have the privilege of mentoring several of them; many of them have become my closest friends. They ranged vastly in age and ethnicity, but not in heart. No, they shared one heart as they embraced their young people, as they heard testimonies of transformation and breathed prayers over the precious lives God has entrusted to their leadership and care.
In that moment, tearfully watching these incredible leaders, the Holy Spirit reassured me yet again of just how blessed I am to spend this season of life and ministry in Aotearoa New Zealand.
It was very personally significant for me that our IGNITE Leadership Debrief took place a couple weeks later on the exact date of my two year anniversary in New Zealand. And as I write this article, I am anticipating having much of the team together again at our EMERGE Leadership Retreat, only two days before I board a plane for my first trip back to the USA. Returning to North America to raise financial support for my second and final term as the National Youth Consultant of WMCNZ has caused me to reflect a lot on the past 28 months. I could write endless pages about my journey so far: learning lessons about culture (and making plenty of mistakes along the way,) visiting our churches across the country, preaching to young people, helping plan youth rallies and camps, offering training to youth workers... But ultimately, my reflection boils down to people. Faces. Of course, I see the faces of young people who have stolen my heart; I have been passionate about teenagers since I was one myself, and this has certainly not changed. However, through this time in the South Pacific, God has highlighted a new group of faces to me. The faces of youth pastors, youth leaders, and youth workers who have poured themselves out as drink offerings in the name of Jesus for the young people whom He loves. The faces of young and developing leaders who will shake the South Pacific and beyond with the Good News of God’s Kingdom. The past 28 months are summed up in your faces. To this incredible team of leaders and some of my closest friends, I want to say “Thank you.” Thank you for allowing me to journey with you and be part of your team. Thank you for the privilege of ministering to you and and alongside you. Thank you for serving Jesus selflessly in your local contexts and youth communities. You’re my heroes. And I look forward to our next season together.
Thursday, March 14, 2013
Too Young?
I Timothy 4:12 "Don't let anyone look down on you because
you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in
conduct, in love, in faith, and in purity." Paul wrote these words to
Timothy, a very young preacher in a culture that looked to elders for
wisdom. God has a habit of choosing young people to make a difference
for His Kingdom; He calls them to live extreme lives of faith in front
of a world that doesn't understand them. In the Old Testament, Jeremiah
was another of these counter-cultural, young leaders. God called him
to be a prophet to his people, but Jeremiah protested, "I do not know
how to speak; I am too young" (Jeremiah 1:6). God's response was clear,
"Do not say, 'I am too young.' You must go to everyone I send you to
and say whatever I command you. Do not be afraid of them, for I am with
you and will rescue you" (Jeremiah 1:7-8).
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
The Ways We Respond
I've just been reading over evaluation forms from IGNITE Camp 2013, and one particular idea stood out to me. Different campers responded most to different messages/speakers/workshops. I am, as always, amazed by how God chooses to work through His servants, and it's really cool to see how He uses each of us to fill a different niche in different people's lives. I love the diversity of the Kingdom of God and how we are all uniquely equipped to minister to different people. God is so good. :)
Monday, November 12, 2012
My Life in a Movie
I ask for forgiveness ahead of time for the slightly girly/non-spiritual nature of this blog post. :) Today I was watching (for the millionth time) the Anne of Green Gables movies. I grew up on these movies and books, largely because of the influence of my Grandma Maxine who shared her love for the movies with me. Every summer, she and I would watch the movies at least a couple times together. I brought the DVD's with me to NZ because I knew I would be homesick for time with Anne.
Today, I started to realise something about the movies. Throughout every stage of my life so far, I've found specific connection and inspiration from different parts of Montgomery's fictitious story of Anne Shirley. As a kid, I loved the first bits of the first movie, when Anne is a 12 year old imaginative misfit. I always related and aspired to her incredible imagination and sense of being a bit odd (yet being ok with it). As a teenager, I loved the school day adventures of Anne, Diana, Ruby, etc. I sought to build friendships that were as deep and cultivating of the imagination as Anne's friendships. I discovered Diana's in people like Trina, Tiffany, Emily, Mandy, and more. I also loved watching her interactions with the teacher that inspired her, Ms. Stacy, and I found a few of my own Ms. Stacy's during my school experience (including but not limited to Ms. Minear, Mrs. Liddle, and Mrs. Davis). And of course, I started to keep an eye out for real, live Gilbert Blythes. :)
During my university and seminary years, I looked to Anne as she excelled in her educational endeavors, winning the Avery Scholarship and performing at the top of her class. She completed her teacher's course in one year instead of two, and I wished my work ethic was something like hers. I also started to see how Anne influenced the people around her. She cared for people in a way that was transforming. As I began in ministry, I learned a lot from how Anne built and nurtured relationships.
Now, as I'm far way from home, I suppose I'm in the Kingsley Ladies College phase. Anne goes off on her own on a great adventure where she learns about the world and herself. She finds new challenges, but she handles them with grace and courage. She makes a difference. I hope I can do the same!
Of course, the movie then ends with Anne realising the love of her life--Gilbert. I'm not exactly anticipating that scene in my own life in the near future--I certainly have no clue who he is if that's the case. SO right now, it seems the comparisons stop there. :)
Still, I've just been reflecting on the power of such a story to connect with a life on so many levels at so many stages. I wonder--anyone else have a fictional book or movie that has played such a role of helping you to "read" your own life? Please don't think I'm a freak who believes Anne was a real person or worships these stories in some way. Anne is no Savior, and I'm fully aware of that. But tonight I'm thankful for people like L.M. Montgomery who could craft a story and a character in such a way to make me feel as though I've had a friend and role model in her books to walk with me through my early life and into adulthood. Pretty awesome in my opinion. Anyone else have any such experiences?
Today, I started to realise something about the movies. Throughout every stage of my life so far, I've found specific connection and inspiration from different parts of Montgomery's fictitious story of Anne Shirley. As a kid, I loved the first bits of the first movie, when Anne is a 12 year old imaginative misfit. I always related and aspired to her incredible imagination and sense of being a bit odd (yet being ok with it). As a teenager, I loved the school day adventures of Anne, Diana, Ruby, etc. I sought to build friendships that were as deep and cultivating of the imagination as Anne's friendships. I discovered Diana's in people like Trina, Tiffany, Emily, Mandy, and more. I also loved watching her interactions with the teacher that inspired her, Ms. Stacy, and I found a few of my own Ms. Stacy's during my school experience (including but not limited to Ms. Minear, Mrs. Liddle, and Mrs. Davis). And of course, I started to keep an eye out for real, live Gilbert Blythes. :)
During my university and seminary years, I looked to Anne as she excelled in her educational endeavors, winning the Avery Scholarship and performing at the top of her class. She completed her teacher's course in one year instead of two, and I wished my work ethic was something like hers. I also started to see how Anne influenced the people around her. She cared for people in a way that was transforming. As I began in ministry, I learned a lot from how Anne built and nurtured relationships.
Now, as I'm far way from home, I suppose I'm in the Kingsley Ladies College phase. Anne goes off on her own on a great adventure where she learns about the world and herself. She finds new challenges, but she handles them with grace and courage. She makes a difference. I hope I can do the same!
Of course, the movie then ends with Anne realising the love of her life--Gilbert. I'm not exactly anticipating that scene in my own life in the near future--I certainly have no clue who he is if that's the case. SO right now, it seems the comparisons stop there. :)
Still, I've just been reflecting on the power of such a story to connect with a life on so many levels at so many stages. I wonder--anyone else have a fictional book or movie that has played such a role of helping you to "read" your own life? Please don't think I'm a freak who believes Anne was a real person or worships these stories in some way. Anne is no Savior, and I'm fully aware of that. But tonight I'm thankful for people like L.M. Montgomery who could craft a story and a character in such a way to make me feel as though I've had a friend and role model in her books to walk with me through my early life and into adulthood. Pretty awesome in my opinion. Anyone else have any such experiences?
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Never Lonely
At the recommendation of my spiritual director, I've been working through Dallas Willard's book Hearing God: Developing a Conversational Relationship with God as part of my personal devotional time lately. Today, I came across the following questions in the book.
"Have you known people who were so close to God that they were never lonely? What do you think of the prospects of such a relationship for you?"
This really made me stop and think. I've asked a lot of questions about loneliness over the past nine months. Having left all of my deep relationships in the US and moved into a new country and culture, loneliness has been a struggle at times. So I started to reflect...
Of course, God created us to be in community. While we can sing, "All of You is more than enough for all of me," we don't totally mean it in a literal sense. God did create us with a need for other people. Even with that fact established, though, many of us struggle with loneliness even while we are IN community!
1. Feelings lie. Just having a feeling of loneliness doesn't mean my relationship with God is on the rocks. Let's not take this to an extreme. However, perhaps a life characterised by loneliness would be an indication of a spiritual need.
2. Maybe loneliness is a God-given reminder of our need for communion with HIM. The truth is, only God knows and understands us perfectly. Only He is always available and always present. He can always "answer the phone" to listen to our needs or "give us a text" through His Word in response to our cries. He is the most faithful Friend. At any point that human relationships are unsatisfying, we should be reminded that our sole satisfaction MUST indeed come from our relationship with God. He desires for us to live in His presence--if we do, we are never alone.
So have I ever known someone who was so close to God that they were never lonely? I'm not sure... Do I want to be the kind of person who is so close to God that my life is marked by satisfaction and contentment through my relationship with Him? Absolutely. Anyone have some thoughts on how to progress toward that end? I'd love to read them.
"Have you known people who were so close to God that they were never lonely? What do you think of the prospects of such a relationship for you?"
This really made me stop and think. I've asked a lot of questions about loneliness over the past nine months. Having left all of my deep relationships in the US and moved into a new country and culture, loneliness has been a struggle at times. So I started to reflect...
Of course, God created us to be in community. While we can sing, "All of You is more than enough for all of me," we don't totally mean it in a literal sense. God did create us with a need for other people. Even with that fact established, though, many of us struggle with loneliness even while we are IN community!
- Sometimes no one will answer the phone or respond to a text, and not a soul is on Facebook chat--and just in an hour or so of isolation, we feel lonely.
- For singles, we can be blessed with the most incredible relationships in the world and yet give in to loneliness for a significant other.
- In the context of community, we can still battle loneliness when we are not in close proximity to those who know and understand us best.
1. Feelings lie. Just having a feeling of loneliness doesn't mean my relationship with God is on the rocks. Let's not take this to an extreme. However, perhaps a life characterised by loneliness would be an indication of a spiritual need.
2. Maybe loneliness is a God-given reminder of our need for communion with HIM. The truth is, only God knows and understands us perfectly. Only He is always available and always present. He can always "answer the phone" to listen to our needs or "give us a text" through His Word in response to our cries. He is the most faithful Friend. At any point that human relationships are unsatisfying, we should be reminded that our sole satisfaction MUST indeed come from our relationship with God. He desires for us to live in His presence--if we do, we are never alone.
So have I ever known someone who was so close to God that they were never lonely? I'm not sure... Do I want to be the kind of person who is so close to God that my life is marked by satisfaction and contentment through my relationship with Him? Absolutely. Anyone have some thoughts on how to progress toward that end? I'd love to read them.
Monday, October 1, 2012
Does God Change His Mind?
is this really God changing His mind??? Some Christians have dealt
with this by saying that God actually chooses to limit His own future
knowledge by giving us free will, that He chooses not to know what we
will decide and therefore is actually able to change His own mind based
on what we decide. (This is part of a belief system called "open
theism"--it is a very new idea, however, and most of orthodox
Christianity has denied its possibility). Most of us, however, choose
to live in the tension that, yes, God knows what will happen and yet has
given us totally free will. Thus, God is "practically" changing His
mind in response to human decision, but He is "technically" not changing
His mind since He already knew what we would do and how He would
respond. (Does your brain hurt yet? lol)
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
Some Fun Moments
1. I have just started eating a meal with a church family when I realize I don't hear anyone's forks but my own. I look up and see that everyone else is eating with their hands. I hear the Holy Spirit, loud and clear in my head, say, "Drop the fork, Amber!" :)
2. The leaders of a Tongan-speaking church and I are gathering to pray before a service. The pastor tells me, "Your English has improved since you first got here. We can understand you much more clearly now." :) A few minutes later, they tell me that I'm basically Tongan now, I just need to learn to speak the language. I say, "I have a bit of identity confusion. One of the Fijian churches told me I have been adopted into the Nawaka village of Nadi in Fiji, but one of the Tongan churches recently gave me a full traditional Tongan dress." The Tongan pastor responds, "The Fijians love in words, but we love in action!" I didn't have the heart to tell him that I had three Fijian sulus in my closet that had been given to me as gifts. :)
3. I'm playing games with a multicultural youth group one night, and one of the students comments on my necklace. I explain to her how it symbolised the fact that my identity is found in Jesus. She then says, "You really love Jesus a lot! You should marry him!" :) I then have to explain a bit about what it means to love Jesus, who He is, and why I can't marry Him. :)
2. The leaders of a Tongan-speaking church and I are gathering to pray before a service. The pastor tells me, "Your English has improved since you first got here. We can understand you much more clearly now." :) A few minutes later, they tell me that I'm basically Tongan now, I just need to learn to speak the language. I say, "I have a bit of identity confusion. One of the Fijian churches told me I have been adopted into the Nawaka village of Nadi in Fiji, but one of the Tongan churches recently gave me a full traditional Tongan dress." The Tongan pastor responds, "The Fijians love in words, but we love in action!" I didn't have the heart to tell him that I had three Fijian sulus in my closet that had been given to me as gifts. :)
3. I'm playing games with a multicultural youth group one night, and one of the students comments on my necklace. I explain to her how it symbolised the fact that my identity is found in Jesus. She then says, "You really love Jesus a lot! You should marry him!" :) I then have to explain a bit about what it means to love Jesus, who He is, and why I can't marry Him. :)
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
High to Low to Love
"High to Low to Love" is the best way I know to describe the past week. First a bit of background... about a week ago, a friend I deeply respect spoke into my life that I need to come to a place of being ok with missing the mark on things. I am not perfect, I can't be perfect, and I can't be driven by fear of failure or of messing up. God is not interested in perfect performance--He wants me to be assured of His love for me no matter what.
On Friday night, I experienced my greatest "high" since arriving in New Zealand. At our Reconnect Concert for the WMCNZ Youth, over 300 people attended representing 15 local churches. The turn-out was incredible--but more than that, the power and unifying presence of the Holy Spirit was amazing. I came home after the rally so encouraged and so lifted up that I couldn't even sleep that night. HIGH.
The next few days continued the high, being with several of our congregations, participating in planning for the IWU Sports Blitz next year, and attending 24/7 Youth Worker Training at the beginning of the week.
Then Wednesday morning happened. I was in a car accident that caused my vehicle to be written off and my insurance premium to be raised. LOW. Praise God, no one was hurt. Praise God for car insurance that will cover the expense of repairing the other vehicle and part of the cost of replacing my own. However, I came home feeling so embarrassed and frustrated with myself, replaying the accident over and over again in my mind, wondering what I could have done differently. How could I have been more focused? How could I have avoided the wreck? I just felt shamed... like this was a sign of not adjusting properly to life in New Zealand. I found myself thinking, "Oh man... I'm the dumb American who got in a wreck at a roundabout... How do I face people here? What about my support team in the States? What will they think about the fact that I have to find another car? Will they think I wasn't a good steward?" All this negative self-talk surfaced that accused me of being not good enough for others to "approve" of me--over an accident! I found myself not wanting my friends to even know about the wreck because I was just embarrassed, but of course, people had to find out.
And then today I was reading a book some friends loaned me about the implications of the Trinitarian life and love on ministry and the Christian life. While reading, the phone and computer continued to alert me of both Kiwi and American friends who are concerned about me, wanting to make sure I am doing ok. And I'm reading about how through the love of the Trinity, we are meant to live and minister out of a sense of surety of God's love for us that is not earned or based on our performance. Somehow all these cross-hairs lined up to teach me something on a personal level about love. I realize more than ever how much I tend to base my perception of God's love and others love for me on performance. And suddenly a wave just washed over me that people love me, not because of what I do or don't do, whether or not I make a seamless transition into Kiwi culture and life,... but just because of the love of God in them. And then that same wave washed over me from above... a sense of God's love for me that is not based on what I do or how hard I work or whether or not I am "productive." And now I'm sitting here with tears streaming down my face, overwhelmed by this LOVE.
From HIGH to LOW to LOVE. Praise God, who promises to work all things for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. He can even use a car accident to reveal more to us about the depths of His love for us and the love that saturates His community.
On Friday night, I experienced my greatest "high" since arriving in New Zealand. At our Reconnect Concert for the WMCNZ Youth, over 300 people attended representing 15 local churches. The turn-out was incredible--but more than that, the power and unifying presence of the Holy Spirit was amazing. I came home after the rally so encouraged and so lifted up that I couldn't even sleep that night. HIGH.
The next few days continued the high, being with several of our congregations, participating in planning for the IWU Sports Blitz next year, and attending 24/7 Youth Worker Training at the beginning of the week.
Then Wednesday morning happened. I was in a car accident that caused my vehicle to be written off and my insurance premium to be raised. LOW. Praise God, no one was hurt. Praise God for car insurance that will cover the expense of repairing the other vehicle and part of the cost of replacing my own. However, I came home feeling so embarrassed and frustrated with myself, replaying the accident over and over again in my mind, wondering what I could have done differently. How could I have been more focused? How could I have avoided the wreck? I just felt shamed... like this was a sign of not adjusting properly to life in New Zealand. I found myself thinking, "Oh man... I'm the dumb American who got in a wreck at a roundabout... How do I face people here? What about my support team in the States? What will they think about the fact that I have to find another car? Will they think I wasn't a good steward?" All this negative self-talk surfaced that accused me of being not good enough for others to "approve" of me--over an accident! I found myself not wanting my friends to even know about the wreck because I was just embarrassed, but of course, people had to find out.
And then today I was reading a book some friends loaned me about the implications of the Trinitarian life and love on ministry and the Christian life. While reading, the phone and computer continued to alert me of both Kiwi and American friends who are concerned about me, wanting to make sure I am doing ok. And I'm reading about how through the love of the Trinity, we are meant to live and minister out of a sense of surety of God's love for us that is not earned or based on our performance. Somehow all these cross-hairs lined up to teach me something on a personal level about love. I realize more than ever how much I tend to base my perception of God's love and others love for me on performance. And suddenly a wave just washed over me that people love me, not because of what I do or don't do, whether or not I make a seamless transition into Kiwi culture and life,... but just because of the love of God in them. And then that same wave washed over me from above... a sense of God's love for me that is not based on what I do or how hard I work or whether or not I am "productive." And now I'm sitting here with tears streaming down my face, overwhelmed by this LOVE.
From HIGH to LOW to LOVE. Praise God, who promises to work all things for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. He can even use a car accident to reveal more to us about the depths of His love for us and the love that saturates His community.
Monday, June 18, 2012
Lots Going Down!
EMMAUS WALK:
Life in Aotearoa New Zealand has been full-on lately! After battling sickness for a few days, I got back in the rhythm of life just in time to attend an Emmaus Walk. This was a great weekend of connecting with some awesome women in the wider Church body as well as God ministering to me in a personal way. After Emmaus, I came home to my flat which has been a bit more full lately. :)
AMERICAN VISITORS:
My flatmate's sister has been here visiting for three weeks. Sadly, she heads back to the U.S. tomorrow. Last Monday, the three of us went to the Auckland Zoo together. It was super fun! The zoo here is fantastic! It's been great to have a visitor staying with us, and she is not the only American who has arrived lately, either! Two representatives from the study abroad programme at I.W.U. have been here as well--we were able to meet up a couple of times to discuss opportunities for I.W.U. students here in Auckland. The Bowlins, great friends of mine and fellow GP tribe members in the South Pacific, arrived on Wednesday morning to Auckland. I was able to greet them "dark and early" at the airport. This family served in New Zealand for two years, and they are currently touching base here for a month before going on to Papua New Guinea for a term of service. It has been great to reconnect with them.
MINISTRY:
I have been able to connect with several youth leaders over the past week. That's always a highlight for me. Wednesday night, a group of us played laser tag with teenagers from Redoubt North. I love laser tag. :) Thursday night, some leaders from our Central Auckland churches gathered to discuss the I.W.U. Sports Blitz outreach scheduled to take place in Auckland one year from now.
This past weekend was intense. Friday night, I preached at a youth group, Saturday, at a youth rally, and Sunday, at a youth-focused Sunday service. God is faithful, even to the point of helping me through leading a children's lesson on Sunday! (Those of you who know me well know that when kids' ages can be expressed in one number, I get a little out of my comfort zone!)
Upcoming, I will be sharing at a youth group tomorrow and we are having a large combined youth rally on Friday night called "Reconnect." (Our past IGNITE Camp was themed around getting connected, so this is an opportunity to reconnect with everyone from camp).
PERSONAL SPIRITUAL JOURNEY:
Lately, God has been speaking to me a LOT about grace and unconditional love. I am realizing more and more how prone I am to living like I need to somehow earn God's approval--a task that proves more than depressing. Living like I need to earn something from God just brings a constant sense of guilt and condemnation. Yet God is slowly teaching me about His grace and the nature of His love for me. We do not have to perform for God--in fact, He is not interested in our "performance." He's interested in our hearts. Anything that we do should flow out of response to His love. Perhaps you, like me, struggle to understand grace and love in a personal way. We can spout off intellectual doctrines about them, but the question is whether or not we allow ourselves to experience them. I want to encourage you to press in with me that we, "may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ." -Ephesians 3:18. Russ Gunsalus recently made a statement in a speech that has really resonated with me. "God loves you, minister, more than He loves your ministry." It's easy to get caught up in trying to work for God and forget what it means to be loved by God in personal relationship. I believe I'm on a journey right now with this, one that will probably continue for a while. I'll try to post personal insights as they come.
Life in Aotearoa New Zealand has been full-on lately! After battling sickness for a few days, I got back in the rhythm of life just in time to attend an Emmaus Walk. This was a great weekend of connecting with some awesome women in the wider Church body as well as God ministering to me in a personal way. After Emmaus, I came home to my flat which has been a bit more full lately. :)
AMERICAN VISITORS:
My flatmate's sister has been here visiting for three weeks. Sadly, she heads back to the U.S. tomorrow. Last Monday, the three of us went to the Auckland Zoo together. It was super fun! The zoo here is fantastic! It's been great to have a visitor staying with us, and she is not the only American who has arrived lately, either! Two representatives from the study abroad programme at I.W.U. have been here as well--we were able to meet up a couple of times to discuss opportunities for I.W.U. students here in Auckland. The Bowlins, great friends of mine and fellow GP tribe members in the South Pacific, arrived on Wednesday morning to Auckland. I was able to greet them "dark and early" at the airport. This family served in New Zealand for two years, and they are currently touching base here for a month before going on to Papua New Guinea for a term of service. It has been great to reconnect with them.
MINISTRY:
I have been able to connect with several youth leaders over the past week. That's always a highlight for me. Wednesday night, a group of us played laser tag with teenagers from Redoubt North. I love laser tag. :) Thursday night, some leaders from our Central Auckland churches gathered to discuss the I.W.U. Sports Blitz outreach scheduled to take place in Auckland one year from now.
This past weekend was intense. Friday night, I preached at a youth group, Saturday, at a youth rally, and Sunday, at a youth-focused Sunday service. God is faithful, even to the point of helping me through leading a children's lesson on Sunday! (Those of you who know me well know that when kids' ages can be expressed in one number, I get a little out of my comfort zone!)
Upcoming, I will be sharing at a youth group tomorrow and we are having a large combined youth rally on Friday night called "Reconnect." (Our past IGNITE Camp was themed around getting connected, so this is an opportunity to reconnect with everyone from camp).
PERSONAL SPIRITUAL JOURNEY:
Lately, God has been speaking to me a LOT about grace and unconditional love. I am realizing more and more how prone I am to living like I need to somehow earn God's approval--a task that proves more than depressing. Living like I need to earn something from God just brings a constant sense of guilt and condemnation. Yet God is slowly teaching me about His grace and the nature of His love for me. We do not have to perform for God--in fact, He is not interested in our "performance." He's interested in our hearts. Anything that we do should flow out of response to His love. Perhaps you, like me, struggle to understand grace and love in a personal way. We can spout off intellectual doctrines about them, but the question is whether or not we allow ourselves to experience them. I want to encourage you to press in with me that we, "may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ." -Ephesians 3:18. Russ Gunsalus recently made a statement in a speech that has really resonated with me. "God loves you, minister, more than He loves your ministry." It's easy to get caught up in trying to work for God and forget what it means to be loved by God in personal relationship. I believe I'm on a journey right now with this, one that will probably continue for a while. I'll try to post personal insights as they come.
Monday, June 4, 2012
Transition Continues
After being in NZ for over 4 months, I'm realizing that transition is a long word. :) Here are a few examples!
1. I reached into my jeans pocket to make sure there wasn't any money it before putting the jeans in the wash. I felt paper and thought, "oh, that must just be a receipt, not money," and was about to throw it away--when I realized it was definitely money. The texture of Kiwi money is different from that of US money, and even after four months, I associate the US texture with cash. SO glad I looked at it before throwing it away!
2. I'm recovering from being sick with a flu-ish bug. While I was sick, I realized that one of the only medications that helps me when I'm sick is not available here. Not only that, but I can't find just good old, regular, salty, very-little-chicken, Campbell's chicken noodle soup! The only kinds are the hearty ones with big chunks of chicken and veggies! Top all that off, when I was driving while not feeling well, I kept questioning, "Am I on the right side of the road?" I was--but just not feeling well was enough to make me very uncertain!
3. At a 21st birthday party where I was asked to share the devotion, I was talking with the pastor beforehand about how things would be structured for the evening. After explaining it to me, he asked, "So Bob's your uncle?" I was blown away... I had never told him that I had an uncle named Bob! He saw the confusion in my expression and explained that this is just a saying in the British Commonwealth that means, "Is everything all good? Everything sweet?" Then he had a laugh when I told him I had an uncle named Bob. :)
Transition is a long word. Definitely longer than four months. Some things that are long are really good! Like an extra long coney dog from Sonic. Mmmm... Sonic... I miss that. Focus. Anyway, some things about the length of transition are really exciting. I love learning new things, experiencing new things, on a regular basis! Other things that are long aren't so fun... Like long lines at the DMV. There are aspects of long transition that are frustrating, like not having your usual comfort items when you're sick. :) Even in times when transition seems hard, I am reminded of God's faithfulness, the beauty of His Body, and the consistency of Who He is.
I am thrilled by God's faithfulness. I am amazed by His grace. I am so thankful for His peace. And I am encouraged by the ways He has answered prayer and moved among us here in Aotearoa New Zealand. I am privileged to experience this transition with Him and in the midst of His Church here. I have the gift of working with an amazing team of youth leaders and young people. I am stoked about what God has planned for the future here!
1. I reached into my jeans pocket to make sure there wasn't any money it before putting the jeans in the wash. I felt paper and thought, "oh, that must just be a receipt, not money," and was about to throw it away--when I realized it was definitely money. The texture of Kiwi money is different from that of US money, and even after four months, I associate the US texture with cash. SO glad I looked at it before throwing it away!
2. I'm recovering from being sick with a flu-ish bug. While I was sick, I realized that one of the only medications that helps me when I'm sick is not available here. Not only that, but I can't find just good old, regular, salty, very-little-chicken, Campbell's chicken noodle soup! The only kinds are the hearty ones with big chunks of chicken and veggies! Top all that off, when I was driving while not feeling well, I kept questioning, "Am I on the right side of the road?" I was--but just not feeling well was enough to make me very uncertain!
3. At a 21st birthday party where I was asked to share the devotion, I was talking with the pastor beforehand about how things would be structured for the evening. After explaining it to me, he asked, "So Bob's your uncle?" I was blown away... I had never told him that I had an uncle named Bob! He saw the confusion in my expression and explained that this is just a saying in the British Commonwealth that means, "Is everything all good? Everything sweet?" Then he had a laugh when I told him I had an uncle named Bob. :)
Transition is a long word. Definitely longer than four months. Some things that are long are really good! Like an extra long coney dog from Sonic. Mmmm... Sonic... I miss that. Focus. Anyway, some things about the length of transition are really exciting. I love learning new things, experiencing new things, on a regular basis! Other things that are long aren't so fun... Like long lines at the DMV. There are aspects of long transition that are frustrating, like not having your usual comfort items when you're sick. :) Even in times when transition seems hard, I am reminded of God's faithfulness, the beauty of His Body, and the consistency of Who He is.
I am thrilled by God's faithfulness. I am amazed by His grace. I am so thankful for His peace. And I am encouraged by the ways He has answered prayer and moved among us here in Aotearoa New Zealand. I am privileged to experience this transition with Him and in the midst of His Church here. I have the gift of working with an amazing team of youth leaders and young people. I am stoked about what God has planned for the future here!
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
Acculturation Moments--Celebrating Small Victories
On our way to do some shopping, a Kiwi teenage girl and I were talking in the car. Our conversation somehow drifted to someone going to Dunedin, NZ. I then made a comment about the South Island, and the girl looked at me and asked, "Wait, is Dunedin in the South Island?"
"Yes, it is!" I exclaimed. "Mark it on the calendar, for once, I knew where something was in New Zealand when a Kiwi didn't!" (It was May 2nd, in case you were wondering.)
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I was sitting in a good friend's lounge, hanging out with a few people, when one of them looked at me and said, "You're losing your accent." Huge, internal YES! :)
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I couldn't believe it as I looked over the two and a half pages full of notes in my journal. I had just sat through an entire sermon in a language I do not know, and somehow I had taken over two pages of notes! Between body language, expression, looking at the Scriptures in English, and glancing at the notes a young lady was taking next to me in English, not to mention the incredible power of the Holy Spirit, I had absorbed a great sermon!
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Almost 3 Months: Life Update!
It is hard to believe that in less than a week, I will have lived in New Zealand for three months! I am amazed by God's faithfulness and still in awe of the opportunity to be here and be part of His work. I want to apologize for MY lack of faithfulness to keep my blog updated! So much has been happening that I just have neglected it! Here's a solid update on life and ministry lately.
This Easter was the most remarkable of my life! Easter Camp is a tradition in New Zealand, and I had the privilege of attending a small Easter Camp at a marae with three of our church youth ministries. The majority of the camp was Fijian, and I was the only palagi (white person) there. However, by the end of the camp I had been given sulus (Fijian wrap skirts) to wear, participated in action chorus dances, and even told I was now "from" Nawaka, Nadi in Fiji. :) It was a beautiful cultural experience, but more than that, it was a beautiful Jesus experience! Two young people made first-time commitments to Christ, and many found victory through the Holy Spirit over areas of struggle in their lives! We heard reports of, "I've never really understood what Easter was about until now!" I've also heard of parents expressing that the young people who came back home after camp were not the same young people who went to camp. How good is our God?
Over this past month, I've been able to connect with nine of our churches/youth ministries. I am still amazed by the diversity of the Body and the ways God is moving. Just this week, I heard the testimony of another young man in one of our churches who had just given his life to Christ! I am so excited about what God is doing and greatly anticipating what might be next! By the end of June, the plan (by God's grace) is that I will have connected in some way with all of our churches on the North Island.
EASTER CAMP
(Pictured Above: Group shot at the end of Easter Camp outside the marae)
This Easter was the most remarkable of my life! Easter Camp is a tradition in New Zealand, and I had the privilege of attending a small Easter Camp at a marae with three of our church youth ministries. The majority of the camp was Fijian, and I was the only palagi (white person) there. However, by the end of the camp I had been given sulus (Fijian wrap skirts) to wear, participated in action chorus dances, and even told I was now "from" Nawaka, Nadi in Fiji. :) It was a beautiful cultural experience, but more than that, it was a beautiful Jesus experience! Two young people made first-time commitments to Christ, and many found victory through the Holy Spirit over areas of struggle in their lives! We heard reports of, "I've never really understood what Easter was about until now!" I've also heard of parents expressing that the young people who came back home after camp were not the same young people who went to camp. How good is our God?
CONNECTING WITH CHURCHES
(Pictured Above: With new friends after a garage youth prayer meeting on Sun. night)
Over this past month, I've been able to connect with nine of our churches/youth ministries. I am still amazed by the diversity of the Body and the ways God is moving. Just this week, I heard the testimony of another young man in one of our churches who had just given his life to Christ! I am so excited about what God is doing and greatly anticipating what might be next! By the end of June, the plan (by God's grace) is that I will have connected in some way with all of our churches on the North Island.
REST, FUN, & NEW EXPERIENCES
(Pictured Above: At the beach to go jet skiing with friends!)
(Pictured Above: With some mates having a picnic at Hunua Falls)
(Pictured Above: Placing poppies on the monument at the Anzac Day ceremony)
One of my favorite quotes for a long time has been by Jim Elliot, "Wherever you are, be all there; live to the hilt every situation you believe to be the will of God." It's my aim to do just that, both in terms of diving into ministry and diving into new experiences. Sometimes I can be a pretty major chicken, especially in situations that require me to have any sort of coordination... haha.... But there is so much to explore and experience in this beautiful country! I went jet skiing for the first time in my life, had a picnic with friends in front of a beautiful waterfall, and went with a youth group to the Waiwera Thermal Hot Pools! The thermal hot pools were quite the experience... it's like Splashing Safari at Holiday World meets a hot tub and a movie cinema... Pretty sweet! Finally, on Anzac Day I attended the dawn ceremony in downtown Auckland. Anzac Day is the day of remembrance for those who died in war as well as those who have served in the military. It was incredible to be part of this event.
All in all, life and ministry are exciting! I still have lots of learning to do, emotional ups and downs are still part of transitioning into a new culture, and I recognize ways God wants to refine and shape me--but I am thankful and stoked for the journey!!!
Monday, March 26, 2012
Catching the Vision; Life Update; Learning the "Language"
CATCHING THE VISION:
My prayer right now is that God would give me a clearer vision of "why I'm here." The BIG PICTURE of partnering with church leaders here to help enable young people to take hold of the hope of the Gospel has been my vision since day one. Now that I am here, however, I am looking for the more specific vision. What are the practical steps and how should they be ordered for me to fulfill the role God has called me to in New Zealand? I can feel God stirring my spirit and speaking direction, both through conversations with other church leaders and in my personal prayer time. Please keep praying with me for God to accomplish His will for the national youth program of the Wesleyan Methodist Church of New Zealand as well as to show me what my personal role looks like in the midst of that big picture!
LIFE UPDATE:
Life has been full and lovely over the past days. I was down sick for one day, but thankfully it only lasted one day! I'm actually amazed that I've gone through this transition and been here almost two months now without getting really sick. Praise God! A lot of administrative tasks have been my focus lately--while these don't necessarily make for fun updates, they are really exciting for the big picture! Pastor Atu and I have two major events in the detail-planning process that are coming up. On May 18th, we will be having a youth leaders' gathering that I am really excited about! It's a sort of one day retreat with three basic elements: fellowship/fun, encouragement, and vision casting/organization for the national youth movement. Next, on June 22-23, we are planning a "Reconnect Weekend" for our youth. The Friday night will be a concert and the Saturday a sports' day! We are still trying to secure a venue for the sports' day, so prayers in that direction are appreciated!
Also, since my last blog update I have been able to visit two more churches for the first time as well as to touch base again with a couple youth ministries. I am still amazed by the beautiful diversity of this multicultural church of which I am now a part. I am so blessed and finding my perspective ever-widened about the kingdom. Also, it is so exciting for me to hear the passion in different church leaders for the young people in their families and communities to experience Christ in a life-changing way. Just this week, I was able to pray with some young people to make new commitments to follow God's plan for their lives. Hallelujah!
LEARNING THE LANGUAGE:
A big part of learning culture is learning language. While English is the dominant language in NZ, it is different than American English in many ways! Also, I've been trying to pick up on some vocabulary of other languages spoken here as well. I've been regularly updating a "dictionary" for my own vocabulary learning, and I've decided to share it. My NZ friends, if you see anything that is wrong, please correct me!
Palagi--Samoan word for white people
Pakeha--Maori word for white people
Pukeko--Pretty big black and blue bird that makes really loud calls outside my house at all hours of the day and night
Kia Ora--Maori greeting/affirmation
Aotearoa--Maori--Land of the Long White Cloud (New Zealand)
Knackered--Worn out
Lead--Leash
Sweet As--Cool; phrase of agreement
Eh?--Right?
Mate--Friend
Bench--Bar counter
Bench Stool--Bar stool
Petrol--Gas
Heaps and heaps--lots
Barbe--Barbecue Grill AND the event of a barbecue
P.I.--Pacific Islander
Keen to--Like to
Motorway--Highway
Bits and bobs--bits and pieces; all of the stuff being referenced, without leaving any small bit out "Be sure you get all your bits and bobs before you leave!"
Car park--Parking Lot AND parking space "I parked in a car park in the Countdown car park."
On Special--On Sale
Take Aways--Carry Outs
Ring--to call on the phone
Goodonya--Good job
Jandals--Flip-flops
Letter Box--Mail Box
Lounge--Living Room
Tiki Tour--Road trip without a definite destination; taking the scenic/long route
Tea--Dinner or tea time
Supper--Snack before bed
I reckon--I think so
A think--A time of thinking; "Go have a think about it."
A sleep--A time of sleeping
Footpath: Sidewalk
Chilly bin: Cooler
Rubbish bin: Trash can
Fizzy drink: soda
Zed: The letter "Z"
Lollies: Candy
Tomato Sauce: Ketchup
Chips: Fries
Jam: Jelly
Jelly: Jello
Biscuits: Cookies
Scones: Biscuits
College: High School
Uni: University
Malo e lelei--Tongan greeting
Malo--Tongan “Thank you”
Bula--Fijian greeting
Venaka--Fijian “Thank you”
Nofo a--Tongan “Goodbye” (from someone leaving)
'Alu a--Tongan “Goodbye” (to someone leaving)
My prayer right now is that God would give me a clearer vision of "why I'm here." The BIG PICTURE of partnering with church leaders here to help enable young people to take hold of the hope of the Gospel has been my vision since day one. Now that I am here, however, I am looking for the more specific vision. What are the practical steps and how should they be ordered for me to fulfill the role God has called me to in New Zealand? I can feel God stirring my spirit and speaking direction, both through conversations with other church leaders and in my personal prayer time. Please keep praying with me for God to accomplish His will for the national youth program of the Wesleyan Methodist Church of New Zealand as well as to show me what my personal role looks like in the midst of that big picture!
LIFE UPDATE:
Life has been full and lovely over the past days. I was down sick for one day, but thankfully it only lasted one day! I'm actually amazed that I've gone through this transition and been here almost two months now without getting really sick. Praise God! A lot of administrative tasks have been my focus lately--while these don't necessarily make for fun updates, they are really exciting for the big picture! Pastor Atu and I have two major events in the detail-planning process that are coming up. On May 18th, we will be having a youth leaders' gathering that I am really excited about! It's a sort of one day retreat with three basic elements: fellowship/fun, encouragement, and vision casting/organization for the national youth movement. Next, on June 22-23, we are planning a "Reconnect Weekend" for our youth. The Friday night will be a concert and the Saturday a sports' day! We are still trying to secure a venue for the sports' day, so prayers in that direction are appreciated!
Also, since my last blog update I have been able to visit two more churches for the first time as well as to touch base again with a couple youth ministries. I am still amazed by the beautiful diversity of this multicultural church of which I am now a part. I am so blessed and finding my perspective ever-widened about the kingdom. Also, it is so exciting for me to hear the passion in different church leaders for the young people in their families and communities to experience Christ in a life-changing way. Just this week, I was able to pray with some young people to make new commitments to follow God's plan for their lives. Hallelujah!
LEARNING THE LANGUAGE:
A big part of learning culture is learning language. While English is the dominant language in NZ, it is different than American English in many ways! Also, I've been trying to pick up on some vocabulary of other languages spoken here as well. I've been regularly updating a "dictionary" for my own vocabulary learning, and I've decided to share it. My NZ friends, if you see anything that is wrong, please correct me!
Palagi--Samoan word for white people
Pakeha--Maori word for white people
Pukeko--Pretty big black and blue bird that makes really loud calls outside my house at all hours of the day and night
Kia Ora--Maori greeting/affirmation
Aotearoa--Maori--Land of the Long White Cloud (New Zealand)
Knackered--Worn out
Lead--Leash
Sweet As--Cool; phrase of agreement
Eh?--Right?
Mate--Friend
Bench--Bar counter
Bench Stool--Bar stool
Petrol--Gas
Heaps and heaps--lots
Barbe--Barbecue Grill AND the event of a barbecue
P.I.--Pacific Islander
Keen to--Like to
Motorway--Highway
Bits and bobs--bits and pieces; all of the stuff being referenced, without leaving any small bit out "Be sure you get all your bits and bobs before you leave!"
Car park--Parking Lot AND parking space "I parked in a car park in the Countdown car park."
On Special--On Sale
Take Aways--Carry Outs
Ring--to call on the phone
Goodonya--Good job
Jandals--Flip-flops
Letter Box--Mail Box
Lounge--Living Room
Tiki Tour--Road trip without a definite destination; taking the scenic/long route
Tea--Dinner or tea time
Supper--Snack before bed
I reckon--I think so
A think--A time of thinking; "Go have a think about it."
A sleep--A time of sleeping
Footpath: Sidewalk
Chilly bin: Cooler
Rubbish bin: Trash can
Fizzy drink: soda
Zed: The letter "Z"
Lollies: Candy
Tomato Sauce: Ketchup
Chips: Fries
Jam: Jelly
Jelly: Jello
Biscuits: Cookies
Scones: Biscuits
College: High School
Uni: University
Malo e lelei--Tongan greeting
Malo--Tongan “Thank you”
Bula--Fijian greeting
Venaka--Fijian “Thank you”
Nofo a--Tongan “Goodbye” (from someone leaving)
'Alu a--Tongan “Goodbye” (to someone leaving)
Thursday, March 15, 2012
"So, what exactly are you doing?"
I've heard this question a few times in reference to my role in New Zealand over the past few weeks. While I can summarize my role here--"I am serving as the National Youth Consultant of the Wesleyan Methodist Church of NZ. This means my role is to be a pastor to youth workers and a source for them of consultancy and resources, to bring a sense of unity and "team" to Wesleyan youth ministry in NZ, to encourage and facilitate the development of new leaders, and to help plan national youth/youth leader events," there are still lots of moments when I am trying to figure out what exactly that looks like! I can tell you some of the activities I participate in on a regular basis--research/preparation for future training, planning meetings for the national youth calendar, traveling to churches, sharing my story and preaching, meeting with youth workers and individual students... But in the midst of trying to sort through how God wants to use me here, the Holy Spirit has been teaching me so much about the way Kingdom work happens, especially when we are serving in a context that is foreign to us. I want to share a few of these lessons I'm learning.
1. Mission takes time. Most missionaries, upon entering a country, spend the entire first year just learning the language and the culture and building relationships. Just because most people in NZ speak English does not mean that a missionary here is allowed to skip over the culture-learning stage. Also, NZ is such a melting pot of cultures that this stage is even more complex in some ways here than it would be in a mono-cultural setting.
2. Taking the posture of a learner and focusing on relationships are key. One of the most important concepts in NZ culture is that of "mana." Mana is a Maori word that means a deep, earned respect/trust. Without having established mana, an outsider coming in could easily offend and burn bridges, doing more harm than good. Thus, rather than coming in with an attitude of arrogance, a foreigner has to come with humility, recognizing that the host culture has a lot to teach him. In many ways, the missionary is the most ignorant person in the Church of the host culture. Thus, before anything can be taught, a LOT must be learned. The missionary should be the first to experience transformation as a result of his presence in the host culture.
3. Spirit-led planning is just as important as acting. Especially in a role focused on national development, a lot of planning has to happen on the front end to ensure that objectives are being accomplished. Spirit-led planning is not somehow less important than the actual "work" of the ministry being planned.
Even in the midst of transition time into a culture, God can graciously allow us to see fruit. Even though I am still very much in this time of transition, I can testify to how God has worked through my time here. I have had the privilege of praying with teenagers, watching them get excited about a relationship with Christ and serving in His Kingdom. I have seen the Holy Spirit begin to tear down walls and minister freedom and healing in young people's lives. Through relationships with non-believers and struggling seekers, I see how God is drawing them slowly to personal knowledge of Himself. I have been privileged to pray and share my heart with fellow youth workers as we walk this journey together. Every now and then, God pulls back the curtain to reveal some small purpose of why I am here. While I believe Him for great things, I am humbled to even be part of the small things. What exactly am I doing???? I am looking to Jesus. (See the devotion below)
"...We do not know what to do, but we are looking to You for help." 2 Chronicles 20:12 NLT
As a leader you'll be called upon to make decisions regarding relationships, money, time, values, opportunities, and disputes. And your decisions will show up on the bottom line. There, in the clear light of day, your leadership will be judged. And there's something else you need to know; in that realm it takes longer to recognise your brilliance or stupidity because you're forced to lead for long periods of time without the benefit of knowing if you made the right call. By the time your crop starts coming in, it's too late to change your agricultural procedure. You have to wait until the next season of planting.
When it comes to leadership, uncertainty is a permanent part of all progress; it never goes away! Furthermore, uncertainty isn't an indication of poor leadership, it just underscores the need for it; it's the environment in which good leadership is most often discovered. As a leader you may think you should always know what to do, but in reality there will be few occasions when you are absolutely certain. It's why King Jehoshaphat prayed, 'We do not know what to do, but we are looking to You for help.' Since you'll constantly be called on to make decisions with limited information, your goal should not be to eliminate uncertainty but to develop the ability to trust God and be courageous and clear in spite of it.
It's not your job to remove uncertainty; it's your job to inspire clarity, faith and progress in the midst of it. When you can do that, you are learning to be a leader.
--The Word for Today, March 15th
1. Mission takes time. Most missionaries, upon entering a country, spend the entire first year just learning the language and the culture and building relationships. Just because most people in NZ speak English does not mean that a missionary here is allowed to skip over the culture-learning stage. Also, NZ is such a melting pot of cultures that this stage is even more complex in some ways here than it would be in a mono-cultural setting.
2. Taking the posture of a learner and focusing on relationships are key. One of the most important concepts in NZ culture is that of "mana." Mana is a Maori word that means a deep, earned respect/trust. Without having established mana, an outsider coming in could easily offend and burn bridges, doing more harm than good. Thus, rather than coming in with an attitude of arrogance, a foreigner has to come with humility, recognizing that the host culture has a lot to teach him. In many ways, the missionary is the most ignorant person in the Church of the host culture. Thus, before anything can be taught, a LOT must be learned. The missionary should be the first to experience transformation as a result of his presence in the host culture.
3. Spirit-led planning is just as important as acting. Especially in a role focused on national development, a lot of planning has to happen on the front end to ensure that objectives are being accomplished. Spirit-led planning is not somehow less important than the actual "work" of the ministry being planned.
Even in the midst of transition time into a culture, God can graciously allow us to see fruit. Even though I am still very much in this time of transition, I can testify to how God has worked through my time here. I have had the privilege of praying with teenagers, watching them get excited about a relationship with Christ and serving in His Kingdom. I have seen the Holy Spirit begin to tear down walls and minister freedom and healing in young people's lives. Through relationships with non-believers and struggling seekers, I see how God is drawing them slowly to personal knowledge of Himself. I have been privileged to pray and share my heart with fellow youth workers as we walk this journey together. Every now and then, God pulls back the curtain to reveal some small purpose of why I am here. While I believe Him for great things, I am humbled to even be part of the small things. What exactly am I doing???? I am looking to Jesus. (See the devotion below)
"...We do not know what to do, but we are looking to You for help." 2 Chronicles 20:12 NLT
As a leader you'll be called upon to make decisions regarding relationships, money, time, values, opportunities, and disputes. And your decisions will show up on the bottom line. There, in the clear light of day, your leadership will be judged. And there's something else you need to know; in that realm it takes longer to recognise your brilliance or stupidity because you're forced to lead for long periods of time without the benefit of knowing if you made the right call. By the time your crop starts coming in, it's too late to change your agricultural procedure. You have to wait until the next season of planting.
When it comes to leadership, uncertainty is a permanent part of all progress; it never goes away! Furthermore, uncertainty isn't an indication of poor leadership, it just underscores the need for it; it's the environment in which good leadership is most often discovered. As a leader you may think you should always know what to do, but in reality there will be few occasions when you are absolutely certain. It's why King Jehoshaphat prayed, 'We do not know what to do, but we are looking to You for help.' Since you'll constantly be called on to make decisions with limited information, your goal should not be to eliminate uncertainty but to develop the ability to trust God and be courageous and clear in spite of it.
It's not your job to remove uncertainty; it's your job to inspire clarity, faith and progress in the midst of it. When you can do that, you are learning to be a leader.
--The Word for Today, March 15th
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
God Speaks...
I've been reflecting today (as the result of a wonderful conversation with a friend) on the fact that God speaks to His people. Sometimes it's tricky to discern His voice. We have to (1) know His character, (2) know His Word, (3) watch for confirmations through others and circumstances, and sometimes (4) we just have to wait. Today has been one of those days when I have experienced Him speaking to me in His own subtle, lovely ways. This culminated in reading my NZ "The Word for Today." The devotional spoke to me, and I thought I would share it. (It is copied at the end of this blog.)
Since my last blog post, I can already see how God is continuing to form me and speak more truth over my life in the process. I have slowly started moving into my office. Tomorrow I am taking some more books to leave there. I've visited another church and youth group for the first time, East City Wesleyan and their student ministry, SURGE. It was a wonderful experience, and I am looking forward to building a stronger relationship with them. I've already gained quite a few Facebook friends out of the visit. :)
I went through the car-hunt process and came out of it yesterday when I officially paid for and drove home my adorable 1997 Mazda Demio hatchback which I have named Ruthie. One of my Kiwi friends suggested the reference to Ruth/Naomi as one that would say, "whereever you go, I will go." I love it. :) I'm slowly gaining confidence with the whole driving on the left-hand side of the road thing.
I've also met with three different youth leaders over the past week. Tonight, after a wonderful coffee meeting, a few of us went walking around the bay after dark. It was a perfect close to the day. I drove home with the comforting thoughts in my mind, "This feels like home." Tomorrow night, I am going to Papakura youth group to hear a student speak. Last week, he told me that he would be willing to speak the next time I was able to visit. I'm really excited. :) Thursday, I have a meeting with the National Youth Ministry Director to do some hard-core planning/discussing about our goals and plans for the national calendar. On Friday, I will be going with a youth pastor/missionary friend into one of the schools for the day to observe/learn more about Kiwi youth culture. I am spending the weekend with her. Friday night, I will speak to her youth at Shore Grace. Sunday morning, I will be with her at her for morning worship as well. Then Sunday night, I am speaking at East City Wesleyan.
In the midst of all the activity and getting settled, I just sense God's presence. While I haven't heard a booming voice from the heavens, I have a peace that He is speaking words of encouragement over me. I hear His pleasure while I wait on Him, trying to discern what my role here looks like. I hear His truth as He teaches me through the testimony and example of my new Kiwi friends and co-laborers in the Gospel. His Word resonates in my spirit. My God speaks.
Ok, below is the promised devotional, if you are still reading that is. :)
The Word for Today, Tuesday, March 6th:
"Unless the Lord builds the house, they labour in vain who build it..." Psalm 127:1 NKJV
In God's Kingdom, centre stage is not for those who think they've got their act together and deserve public recognition. Nor is it limited to those in leadership and public ministry. It's a call to action, to you, whoever and wherever you are today. When you trust God's timing He grooms you for bigger and better parts.
But there are some things you must and must not do: (1) Don't try to make it on your own. Popular wisdom says, 'Fake it till you make it,' and you'll be tempted to debut in your own strength. Don't do it! If you do, you will get in the way of a much greater production. The Bible says, 'Unless the Lord builds the house, they labour in vain who build it.' Trust God, and when your moment comes He will give you your cue. (2) Leave the shadows. Are you ready to transform 'acting' into an authentic performance that reveals the real you? Fear of rejection is powerful. It takes courage to be yourself. But you gain strength from the struggle and power from the pain when you are willing to risk moving from the shadows into the light. (3) Confront your inner critic. We are all subject to the little voice within that says, 'You'll never be smart enough, rich enough, pretty enough or good enough to stand in the spotlight.' But when God raises you up, nobody can put you down. So remind your inner critic of God's promise: '... You shall go to all whom I send you, and whatever I command you, you shall speak' (Jeremiah 1:7 NKJV).
Since my last blog post, I can already see how God is continuing to form me and speak more truth over my life in the process. I have slowly started moving into my office. Tomorrow I am taking some more books to leave there. I've visited another church and youth group for the first time, East City Wesleyan and their student ministry, SURGE. It was a wonderful experience, and I am looking forward to building a stronger relationship with them. I've already gained quite a few Facebook friends out of the visit. :)
I went through the car-hunt process and came out of it yesterday when I officially paid for and drove home my adorable 1997 Mazda Demio hatchback which I have named Ruthie. One of my Kiwi friends suggested the reference to Ruth/Naomi as one that would say, "whereever you go, I will go." I love it. :) I'm slowly gaining confidence with the whole driving on the left-hand side of the road thing.
I've also met with three different youth leaders over the past week. Tonight, after a wonderful coffee meeting, a few of us went walking around the bay after dark. It was a perfect close to the day. I drove home with the comforting thoughts in my mind, "This feels like home." Tomorrow night, I am going to Papakura youth group to hear a student speak. Last week, he told me that he would be willing to speak the next time I was able to visit. I'm really excited. :) Thursday, I have a meeting with the National Youth Ministry Director to do some hard-core planning/discussing about our goals and plans for the national calendar. On Friday, I will be going with a youth pastor/missionary friend into one of the schools for the day to observe/learn more about Kiwi youth culture. I am spending the weekend with her. Friday night, I will speak to her youth at Shore Grace. Sunday morning, I will be with her at her for morning worship as well. Then Sunday night, I am speaking at East City Wesleyan.
In the midst of all the activity and getting settled, I just sense God's presence. While I haven't heard a booming voice from the heavens, I have a peace that He is speaking words of encouragement over me. I hear His pleasure while I wait on Him, trying to discern what my role here looks like. I hear His truth as He teaches me through the testimony and example of my new Kiwi friends and co-laborers in the Gospel. His Word resonates in my spirit. My God speaks.
Ok, below is the promised devotional, if you are still reading that is. :)
The Word for Today, Tuesday, March 6th:
"Unless the Lord builds the house, they labour in vain who build it..." Psalm 127:1 NKJV
In God's Kingdom, centre stage is not for those who think they've got their act together and deserve public recognition. Nor is it limited to those in leadership and public ministry. It's a call to action, to you, whoever and wherever you are today. When you trust God's timing He grooms you for bigger and better parts.
But there are some things you must and must not do: (1) Don't try to make it on your own. Popular wisdom says, 'Fake it till you make it,' and you'll be tempted to debut in your own strength. Don't do it! If you do, you will get in the way of a much greater production. The Bible says, 'Unless the Lord builds the house, they labour in vain who build it.' Trust God, and when your moment comes He will give you your cue. (2) Leave the shadows. Are you ready to transform 'acting' into an authentic performance that reveals the real you? Fear of rejection is powerful. It takes courage to be yourself. But you gain strength from the struggle and power from the pain when you are willing to risk moving from the shadows into the light. (3) Confront your inner critic. We are all subject to the little voice within that says, 'You'll never be smart enough, rich enough, pretty enough or good enough to stand in the spotlight.' But when God raises you up, nobody can put you down. So remind your inner critic of God's promise: '... You shall go to all whom I send you, and whatever I command you, you shall speak' (Jeremiah 1:7 NKJV).
Friday, February 24, 2012
Reflection on 10 Day Trip; Back Home in Auckland
I was sitting on a mat on the floor of a lounge, sharing a traditional Tongan meal with my brothers and sisters in Christ in their home, when IT HAPPENED! As I prayed with two teenage girls, one who wanted to start the journey of really committing herself to Christ and another who wanted to commit to discipling her friend, IT HAPPENED. IT HAPPENED again around a picnic table over tea with a youth pastor, and again on a beach as I witnessed for the first time a baptism at the beach. Yet again, IT HAPPENED while I sat on floor mat singing worship songs in Fijian with new friends, and again when my new "Fijian sister" and I sat on a couch just sharing our hearts for young people with each other. While sitting in a small circle in a church hall, sharing the Word of Life with young people, IT HAPPENED. Over and over again, IT HAPPENED-->the fresh and beautiful revelation struck me that I am in New Zealand, where God has called me to be!
There is no way to fully explain the beautiful diversity and outstanding faith that I encountered on my tour of several of our churches in the central region. I still have many churches to connect with, but it was so incredible to see what God is doing in some of our congregations and build relationships with pastors, youth leaders, and students. I was able to share my "Jesus story" on different occasions, but more than anything I was able to learn, observe, and connect. I was so excited to hear SEVERAL testimonies of recent conversion from our students. God is moving! Those of you who were praying for Ignite camp in January--your prayers and the prayers of others were definitely heard! As two teenage boys shared with me, one night at camp, the Lord just pushed them forward to give their lives to Him. I am so excited to be part of this movement and come alongside our leaders as they pour themselves into these young people!!! One over-arching theme that I heard from leaders over the past week and a half is that there are not enough leaders to meet the needs! Please be praying for God to raise up more leaders who will commit themselves to serving young people and the church in general in New Zealand.
Today, I went with seven other young adults to a Young Life training conference. It was a great day, but I am definitely exhausted after ten days of traveling, and short night's sleep, and a full day of seminars. It's time for laundry and a bit of rest before hitting the ground running again. Below are some pictures to try to convey some of my trip. If you want the full effect, check out the albums on Facebook.
Maori performance at Whakarewarewa in Rotorua
With a Maori carving at Whakarewarewa, representing Disciple of course :)
My Tongan friends though it would be fun to dress me up as a Tongan. :)
With Gisborne Tongan youth group
Another pic with Gisborne Tongan youth
With Pastor Sione and family
Beach baptism with Living Waters Church
With some of my new friends from Streams Gathering
Kathy, my Kiwi friend who took me on this trip, and leaders from Whanganui Wesleyan
With youth from Whanganui Wesleyan
Monday, February 13, 2012
Insights on the Beach for my Land-Locked, Midwestern Friends
So, when I was growing up, a trip to the beach was something that might happen every so many years. When you are land-locked, going to the beach becomes synonymous with mega-holiday! I am quickly learning, however, that on an ISLAND, this is not the case at all! In fact, there are TONS of public beaches within a twenty minute drive of my house! Going to the beach is not synonymous with holiday here--it's just a normal part of life--like a trip to the park or the store. So, when you see pictures of the beach on my facebook page, I just want to explain that this doesn't mean I'm here on vacation! In fact, it means that I am spending time where people are and learning more about Kiwi culture. This past weekend, I had the joy of spending a day on the beach in a group of seven young adult gals who are all up and coming leaders in the Church in New Zealand. It was a wonderful time to learn more about culture and engage in some awesome theological discussions. This trip was more of a one-day holiday than most beach trips because we were visiting friends who had a "bach" (beach house) at Pauanui, which is about 2 and a half hours away. It also meant that I got some valuable driving experience. :) However, most beach days will be close to home. Going to the beach is a cheap way to chill out and build relationships for an evening or a Saturday! It's also a common youth group excursion. :)
Thursday, February 9, 2012
I'm in Love...
Kia ora from Aotearoa!!! That is, hello from the Land of the Long White
Cloud (New Zealand)!!! We still don't have internet at our house, so my communication has been
limited. Pray that the router comes today and hooks up without a problem!
Yes, I think I'm in love. This has to be what it feels like, but I'm in love with a people, a place, and a culture (actually, multiple cultures) rather than a guy. My flatmate and I watched a chick flick the other night to chill out before going to bed. Afterward, in the reality post-movie let down, I remembered where I am and realized that my actual reality is better than the movie's false one!!! I'm in love!!!!!
Every time I'm around teenagers here, my heart breaks and spirit soars
at the same time. Can't explain it. I'm praying daily for an
outpouring of the Spirit that will bring heaps and heaps of these youth
to the hope of Jesus Christ.
Life here is beautiful. Can't wait to share pictures. Next week I leave for a ten day trip seeing different parts of the North Island and connecting with churches. I will take lots of pics too.
My little house (above) is seriously perfect and the landscape is beautiful. My flatmate, Jessica, is great. I definitely see God's hand in putting us together. She is doing sports ministry in a school and a church.
I've got some amazing time with Joanne, Carmel, Sara, and Steph as well, my instant circle of friends. For those who don't know, Jo became an immediate best mate when I was here before. She's a called and gifted youth pastor who seriously shares my heart. Its been so good to go for a stroll and a coffee with her and just get quality hang out and talk time again as well as to see her in ministry action this week. Carmel is a young adult believer whom I just met in person. She has a passion and gift for evangelism and is just a lovely gal. She recently started working in youth ministry at her church as well. She took me driving for the first time on Monday night! Sara is an American who graduated from IWU and has been here for five years as a teacher. We watched the Superbowl together. :) Steph is an American missionary youth pastor at one of our churches and is the gal I came with the first time to NZ. All that to say, relationship building is alive and well, so I don't feel isolated.
I've played ping pong, dodge ball, and croquet already with teenagers. I've also walked through the botanical gardens in Manurewa as well as part of Totara Park. I'm keeping active and eating healthier than ever before--already lost almost 8 pounds!! I spoke on Wednesday night for Papakura youth group. Nothing like sharing my heart for Jesus with teenagers to get me stoked!!! I also had a phenomenal meeting with Pastor Atu, the National Youth Ministries Director whom I will be working very closely with here in New Zealand. We truly share a heart and vision, and I'm honored to learn from and serve with him.
I'm constantly observing and learning culture. Its draining actually, because nothing is mindless, but I'm loving the challenge and mental thrill. FYI, I've found my Hebrew vowels are very helpful in learning to pronounce Maori words.
In His Love,
Amba
Yes, I think I'm in love. This has to be what it feels like, but I'm in love with a people, a place, and a culture (actually, multiple cultures) rather than a guy. My flatmate and I watched a chick flick the other night to chill out before going to bed. Afterward, in the reality post-movie let down, I remembered where I am and realized that my actual reality is better than the movie's false one!!! I'm in love!!!!!
Every time I'm around teenagers here, my heart breaks and spirit soars
at the same time. Can't explain it. I'm praying daily for an
outpouring of the Spirit that will bring heaps and heaps of these youth
to the hope of Jesus Christ.Life here is beautiful. Can't wait to share pictures. Next week I leave for a ten day trip seeing different parts of the North Island and connecting with churches. I will take lots of pics too.
My little house (above) is seriously perfect and the landscape is beautiful. My flatmate, Jessica, is great. I definitely see God's hand in putting us together. She is doing sports ministry in a school and a church.
I've got some amazing time with Joanne, Carmel, Sara, and Steph as well, my instant circle of friends. For those who don't know, Jo became an immediate best mate when I was here before. She's a called and gifted youth pastor who seriously shares my heart. Its been so good to go for a stroll and a coffee with her and just get quality hang out and talk time again as well as to see her in ministry action this week. Carmel is a young adult believer whom I just met in person. She has a passion and gift for evangelism and is just a lovely gal. She recently started working in youth ministry at her church as well. She took me driving for the first time on Monday night! Sara is an American who graduated from IWU and has been here for five years as a teacher. We watched the Superbowl together. :) Steph is an American missionary youth pastor at one of our churches and is the gal I came with the first time to NZ. All that to say, relationship building is alive and well, so I don't feel isolated.
I've played ping pong, dodge ball, and croquet already with teenagers. I've also walked through the botanical gardens in Manurewa as well as part of Totara Park. I'm keeping active and eating healthier than ever before--already lost almost 8 pounds!! I spoke on Wednesday night for Papakura youth group. Nothing like sharing my heart for Jesus with teenagers to get me stoked!!! I also had a phenomenal meeting with Pastor Atu, the National Youth Ministries Director whom I will be working very closely with here in New Zealand. We truly share a heart and vision, and I'm honored to learn from and serve with him.
I'm constantly observing and learning culture. Its draining actually, because nothing is mindless, but I'm loving the challenge and mental thrill. FYI, I've found my Hebrew vowels are very helpful in learning to pronounce Maori words.
In His Love,
Amba
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